Life can be exhausting.

Holy shit!  OK I have to give a GREAT big hand to all the full time working Moms out there.  You ladies are incredible.  I don't know how you do it.  I've now been working full time for 2 and a half weeks.  This is HARD! I had no idea, I worked part time for a few years, it's hard but not too bad.

  Full time is "OMG when the fuck do I get anything done?! "  I'm lucky to have an 8 to 5 job and no weekends.  However my husband can't drive because of his brain cancer, and I have four kids.  So as soon as I get home the running starts, if I'm lucky the hubs has cooked dinner, and I can grab some bit of it on my way back out the door.  I usually finally get home from all the shit I have to do after work, around 9 pm each night.  Then, while I AM tired, I don't want to go to bed, I just want to chill for a while, so I end up stay up to 11:30/12:00.  THEN I have to turn around and get up at 6:00 am to do it all over again the next day.  STUPID!  I just need to learn to go to bed but I don't want to!

I used to get groceries on Monday mornings, now if I don't go on the weekend I have to go after work.  I don't even like shopping in the first place!  Why can't they just deliver like the pizza place?  I have to make important phone calls on lunch, and everyone I'm trying to call is on lunch so it's a phone tag of epic proportions.  The house is a wreck, the laundry gets done on an 'as I need clothes for work' basis, and the kids and hubs are laying around doing nothing but jack shit all day long.  That's about to change.  They are going to think they just hit an episode of Wife Swap, cause it's time for MY RULES and everyone has to play.

I need a weekend from my weekend, I think we all should have mandatory 2 weeks vacation every month!  Don't get me wrong I'm THANKFUL to have a job I like it, and I NEED it, but it's taking some getting used to.  For those of you that have been doing it for years, I had no idea, you really are SUPER MOMS!  So drink an extra margarita and take a nap, it's Sunday!

I got a job!

Hell to the Yeah!

I got a job, I can't tell you how excited I am to get OUT of my house for 9 hours a day!  It's also at a company that a good friend of mine works at, so bonus I already know someone there.  My coworkers all seem pretty cool (time will tell, you know how an office full of women can be), the job is not to hard, yet still challenging I think it'll be great.  It was sorely needed w/ the hubs and Disability and no health insurance, it was going downhill fast, I've been looking and then my friend mentioned this job.  Hallelujah!!  A few interviews later and I got the call!  I'm so thrilled! 

I started last Thursday, and it's pretty good.  Few things I gotta mention.  It's an office job so a LOT of sitting, which is actually making my body hurt.  Let's not get confused, I'm no stranger to sitting and my derriere has PLENTY of padding, but it's usually not in an office chair or for that long.  I'm a Mom of four, I'm always moving, I sit at my desk, or on the floor in the living room, sometimes the Lay Z Boy if I'm lucky, though if I sit there it seems like open invitation for all the children to pile on to me.  I'm always up and running to do a load of laundry, clean up a mess, check the pool filter, water the garden...SOMEthing.  This is a full time job, I haven't actually worked a full time job, I think EVER(well besides being a Mom).  Maybe a full time week or two during different jobs, but not consistently.  I've been a SAHM twice, and worked part time jobs on and off over the years.  It sure takes some getting used to.

I've never been one to take showers first thing in the morning, more like a mid morning chore.  I also don't like going to bed w/ wet hair.  Now I have no choice it's one or the other, so morning gets it.  That means I have to get up earlier.  Which is technically no problem as I'm a morning person anyway, but I like to get up early and just CHILL, not do anything but listen to the quiet.  Now I actually have to get myself around and get the day figured out, make my lunch, start the pool filter, water the flowers and get moving.  What are the kids doing, do they need a ride anywhere, does the hubs have a doc appointment??? I feel like my head is spinning.  Oh and guess what?  You can't do anything w/ any business at all,  unless you call on your lunch hour, which hopefully isn't also their lunch hour, it kinda sucks.  I feel bad that the kids are home all day w/ their dad and nothing to do.  He can't drive so he can't take them anywhere, and he's such a pain in the ass, that I know they aren't having a good time.  Oh well, sooner than ya know school will start and they'll be back w/ their friends all day.  

Not only that, but I still have all the other household crap to do that I always do.  This does not make life easy.  THEN this weekend is my daughter's Pom/Baton Nationals, so I keep getting assigned tasks to do in the evening for the teams.  I can't wait til Nationals is over, this is TOO much!  I just want to come home from work and relax for once.  

I don't know how my Mom did it, I'd type some more, but I can't keep my eyes open.  Good night.